Jack's Exert:

"Why did I cause so much pain?" -Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club

Why did I cause so much pain? Why did I think you would not see through me? Why did I do what I did? Why didn't I do the "right" thing? Why did I fail you? Why didn't I just let you have it, take care of you first? And then me later. Whatever heroic self destructive/preserving action that would have been. Trust me, in my mind it makes sense. Perfect sense. In the end we both would have been taken care of. Everything would have worked out. Just fine, in a fucked up twisted ending sort of a way. But I just couldn't do it. Yet anyway. Maybe I have been listening to my therapist for too long. Maybe it is all the medication in my system. Maybe part of me realizes something. Maybe I hurt myself enough, by hurting you, and that is enough to satisfy me for now.

Jack's Rings: